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This is a little something I wrote when I was feeling down...
When You’re Not You When you’re not you… You do things to hurt me And to make me cry You break my heart And absolutely kill me inside. When you’re not you… You lie to me Run away and disappear You leave me crying and worrying All alone and sitting here. When you’re not you… You always say that you’re sorry But that’s just words that you say They’re empty and hollow Something to take your guilt away. When you’re not you… You don’t know how much pain You really put me through How much I die each time You do what you do. When you’re not you… Absolutely nothing matters You only worry about yourself You don’t care about me Or anybody else. When you’re not you… Everything we’ve worked for crumbles Becomes like dust in the wind Then we have to pick up the pieces And start all over again. When you’re not you… I don’t know what to do I don’t know what to say I don’t know if I should let you go Or if I should stay. When you’re not you… I can’t see the person you are The man I know you can be I can’t see the man that I married That promised he’d always be there for me. When you’re not you… The choices you make Destroy everything in sight Your all I’ll ever want But I don’t know if I can continue to fight. When you’re not you… I don’t know how much longer I can do what I do Or how much longer I can be here ….When you’re not you. |
FOR ANYONE THAT HAS BEEN HURT BY THE ONE YOU LOVE THE MOST.....
My Mistake I made a mistake You, I thought you would catch me when I fell You give me tastes of Heaven But you also drag me through Hell. You break my heart You make me cry You cause me so much pain When you sneak and you lie. Can’t you see What you put me through How you hurt me, tear me down Leave me worried, broken too? I know that I love you More than you love me I’ve known that all along Its easy for anyone to see. You don’t love me enough To stop what you do To put me first in your life Like I always do you. Sometimes I think you want me to quit To walk away forever, to leave you alone Its in the things you say Its in the actions you’ve show. If I was smart, I’d turn and walk away And not let you continue to hurt me Not even for one more day. But instead I stay Hoping you’ll do what’s right Hoping you’ll be you And be worth the fight. How can I leave When all I want is to stay To live the rest of my life with you Each and every day? Its not lack of courage That continues to hold me here Its not stupidity or desperation And its certainty not fear. Its my unending love Unconditional and true I see the real man you are inside That’s what keeps me here with you. I take everything you throw at me Every wild curve, every sharp, twisting bed I’m holding on to us for dear life Praying for the hurting to end. I just wish you’d fight for me Like I fight for you Do what’s best for us Not just whatever you want to. But its never going to happen is it? I’m always going to be last Its going to continue Like it always has in the past. You’ll do what you want And not give a damn about me You’ll push and push and push me away Until you win and you make me leave. Maybe that’s what you want Maybe that’s what you need Maybe I’m not right for you Maybe you’re not right for me. But it would be so hard to leave Give up on the one I live my life for To just say “Fuck it” And head for the door. But no matter what happens to us If our relationships falls apart and ceases I will still be loving you forever Broken hearted but with every one of the pieces. |
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